When the Lord gives you an inspiration, run with it. Almost immediately after that, Satan tries to stop you.
My faith was very recently all but shattered. It took just about every ounce of spiritual strength I had to not blaspheme against God. Sure, I questioned His purpose, but I believe I can say I never wanted to “curse God and die”. I wasn’t sure how long this period of amazing doubt would last, but I didn’t want it to be long. I recruited a couple of my very close friends to fight with me in prayer, and in just a few days I can say the Lord is faithful.
This morning on my way to work I realized I’m on the brink of something incredible. I have no idea what that is, but I can sense an excitement building within my soul for what God will do with me. I can’t say I’m excited yet, but I can see it coming. I also realized that within five minutes, Satan was already fighting against this faith that is being restored. He told me that while I might feel like excitement is on the horizon, it will quickly fade and I will realize that I am still battered and bruised. I fought that with the statement that I’m still tender, to borrow from a Smalltown Poets song, “like skin is when it heals”.
I would like to call on all of you that read my blog that share a faith in the Risen Christ with me to pray me through this last stretch back to a renewed confidence in my relationship with God. Help me to be lifted over the edge to realize this excitement I believe is very close. I want to declare this to you now in faith, believing, so I can be accountable to it. If I don’t tell you what I believe God is doing, I may begin to doubt again. Now you share in this with me, and I’m so thankful for that. It’s a wonderful thing when God’s children come together to edify one, and I appreciate it more than you know. I tremble even as I save this post, but I will let you know when the battle has been won.
-j
I'm Jason, and I like to write.
Jason- I love you and will be praying for you. I have received the blessing from your openness, and believe that the Lord will provide for you. May He bless you and grant you the faith.
That’s strange because I recently had a problem with doubting. I had to look back at all of the times in my life where God was there for me. I also said to myself, “I KNOW there’s a devil!” I know that he does his terrible miracles today, posseses people, etc. If I believe in him, I have to believe that there is also an all powerful God who sent His Son to die for me, saved me with His precious blood, and rose agian to give me victory over sin. That’s another thing…I have victory over sin! I can’t help but remember what a terrible sinner I was. I wanted to do the right thing and couldn’t. I remember how frustrated I was – how I hated myself! Thank the Lord, I’m not the same person I used to be. I will ALWAYS thank Him for the mercy on my soul…and all of the times He’s forgiven me since then.
I hope this helps you. I’ll be praying for you.
In the love of Christ,
Jenny